Big disagreement at the seaoat household. Wife has really been pushing the hospice in advance for when I cannot walk. I had a blow up yesterday. I am not sleeping in that F'ing death bed. I am getting a trailer and a scooter. She does not want me driving. BS! I am wasting away, but the docs were emphatic that if I can survive three months, we will see benefits from the prrt. What am I going to do wait for the unknown in a hospital bed......BS! I am going to push the envelope just as I have ten years fighting this disease, but I think my wife honestly is so tired of what lies ahead she almost in a child like trance that some how Hospice is the only answer. I am grateful for my caregiver, but there are ways I can live a full life the few months I may have.......and I will drive......and I will get a motorized wheel chair.
She honestly comes in each night to see if I am breathing.....it has been a miracle with what is left of me, but she needs to understand......she may be right and I will be dead within a month, but if she is wrong I will be living a tortured life of dependence. I have been independent since my father died when I was ten, and certainly every dying person deals with the loss of control, but quality of life must be the controlling factor.........look out Walmart shoppers.....seaoat on a scooter.
She honestly comes in each night to see if I am breathing.....it has been a miracle with what is left of me, but she needs to understand......she may be right and I will be dead within a month, but if she is wrong I will be living a tortured life of dependence. I have been independent since my father died when I was ten, and certainly every dying person deals with the loss of control, but quality of life must be the controlling factor.........look out Walmart shoppers.....seaoat on a scooter.