Bob,
Those oh chit days can merge into oh chit weeks.......I know when I get knocked on my asz that all the cheerleading in the world does not change my reality. So none of us can change your reality. Most of us cannot even get close to the thirty day hell you have been through. I know I get tired.....really tired at times, but we can only pray that you will garnish some strength when you get up in the morning, and all the drugs, cancer, and paralysis can take a back seat to your essence which can and must beat this. Take a deep breath and get through this oh chit week, and hang onto the hope that you can regain some semblance of a sane world where you can get just a little bit of your life back........we are all pulling for you, but it has been a pleasure knowing your kind soul, and I hope that in the next six weeks I can visit you if I am able to make the trip.......if nothing else you could get a giggle or two, but in any regard be comfortable and understand that we are all pulling for you.