he Florida project has consumed my health. The decline now in the heat is just going to have me making it home driving. With endocrine cancer when the hormone levels are high you have constant bowel movements which drain you of any strength. I used to rest awhile and hit it again, but honestly I think I am nearing the time for my chair. I will try to come down one more time after our 40th Sunday June 5th celebration with family and friends, but I cannot come down here alone again. I think my last visit will be for about seven days and then I hope I can live to the fall and enjoy the park model and warmer weather. The project has turned out much more expensive and stressful on my health. It was fun in the winter clearing the land in the cool weather, but this heat has consumed me. I hope I can recharge my batteries, and my shots on Monday can mellow the symptoms.....but I knew the decline was coming and hoped my activity and work could slow the big C....but it now has me. I am not sad, or regretful about doing something different. I know that there is no white knight cure for what I have, and I know from my cousin's husband and Steve Jobs what is coming next, but somehow I have never been happier in my life. I will be glad to be with the grandchildren again as they have seen the six foot alligator photos in our pond, and want to know when I will quit fighting the alligator and come home.....I will be spending even more time with them in the upcoming months. The funny thing is I look better than I have looked in twenty years as I am losing weight......sometimes you need to be careful what you ask for.....and that extra weight.....well I wish I had it back.....the belly is swelling from the liver, and I am slowing down, but today I walked the blackwater trail from the Burger King to Milton City hall.....I figured my car was getting worked on, and I may never get to do this again.....I did too much and I am packing for home.....but there is a bridge and creek on the trail near the Milton High school with ferns and clear water flowing beneath that reminded me of my childhood getting tadpoles and frogs.....what a beautiful walk.....in all a good day despite the decline.
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