Bob I am very tired and hurt all the time now......I am tired of being poked, cut on, blood work, shots, and treated like a piece of meat, and mostly I am just tired. As soon as I start to feel sorry for the decline, I realize how much I can still do and how I am bearing the discomfort without pain pills for the most part.......the not getting out of chairs easily continues, and I find out if they can do one more debulking on the lung tumors.....if they cannot, I am afraid the tumor load will have me sleeping most of the time and fading away. I hope it is the liver and not the lung tumors which do me in because not breathing is not fun. I remember the PM between retired Leo and how difficult it was at the end.....he always kept a positive approach and never let us know how bad it was until his last post where he said he would continue to read, but he was too weak to post.....I remember after Neko came back from her fight for life how weak she was, and how her lungs just failed her.......so I am posting more for now because I am not getting out.......and I hope this nation can find peace and security without spending so much on war. I wish I had allocated more time to solve these problems, but I did my fair share....just not enough. If it starts getting worse, I will probably try to get two docs and get fingerprinted for medical pot and will give up driving.......I hope I am wrong......I hope the tumors are stable and the hormone levels are good, and they can operate on the lungs in the next three months, but I am so fricking tired, and there are other forum members who are facing so much pain, that I feel guilty even talking about this eight year battle......eight years of wonderful life, but as I said.....they all come to an end.