It’s heartbreak with training wheels.
Or it could just be as simple as normal people have fun watching football, basketball, and baseball. I like going to art museums. You like to sing. Each of us derive enjoyment from activities. I enjoy playing poker, and I know it is not a healthy thing for all people, and I like to hunt when I eat what I shoot, but I fully understand that some people do not get hunting, and do not have the patience for fishing. We all live in a great free country which gives us the freedom to choose our recreational pleasures, and although I enjoyed riding a motorcycle as a young man, I almost got killed at an intersection when a car blew a stop sign, and I personally would not ride, or have any of my kids ride because I believe it is unnecessarily dangerous because people do not see motorcycles, but I certainly would not say you suffer some kind of death wish because you ride.......I had fun, and I know you have fun, I simply choose to recreate a different way. Just because you are odd does not make you wrong, and you should enjoy those things which make you happy.