Someone told me a long time ago "You always do what you want to do" When i heard that i was enraged. What a stupid god damn statement. I want to get drafted into the Army? I wanted to mess up some loving relationships with people I cared about?
The answer is Yes. I did not have be drafted, I had other options, jail, leave the country, etc. But I chose to join. Bottom line, it was my call. In some relationships I was less than a good person, I could have changed but I chose not to, as a result, they ended.
You may down deep love what you are doing. It is exciting, you have a certain amount of power and prestige and I would guess some financial security.
You may be doing what you want to do. You might not want any one to take care of you. Oh sure it sounds nice but you may have to sacrifice some of you freedom you now enjoy. The choice is yours.
You know who you are. If you are going too fast slow down, not going fast enough, speed up. Life is a just a journey. Enjoy the trip